PROM 2011 ➡️ BRIDESMAID 2018
LEFT PHOTO: I remember this constant feeling of never being enough - not BEAUTIFUL enough, not SMART enough, and because I was graduating and had NO idea what the future would look like for me, I definitely didn’t feel ACCOMPLISHED enough either. At this point, I hadn’t really experienced anything. I lived in this constant state of fear that I would be mocked by my peers, so I never let myself truly open up and discover what I was passionate about. I didn’t know what life was going to be like in university, or whether I would even make friends. I felt like the world was always looking at me and that I would never measure up to everyone’s expectations.
RIGHT PHOTO: Even by my pose, you can tell I’m a lot more confident. My body has (obviously) changed through years of hard work & dedication, but the way that I carry myself had changed as well. I still do have those same self-deprecating thoughts that pop in and out. Not on a regular basis anymore, but occasionally. Life isn't perfect, and I still struggle with self doubt, but I’m a lot more comfortable with who I am. I have clear sense of direction, I work for what I want and I live life unapologetically. I know my worth, follow my passions (wherever they may lead) and embrace uncertainty with arms wide open.
Looking back on the past 7 years, I realize I had NO idea that I would end up here. And that’s what so cool about time - it takes TIME to really figure out who you wanna be. Everybody wants this quick fix. They want everything to be different in mere days or even weeks - but it took me 7 WHOLE YEARS to get to where I am now, and even then, I’m still learning more and more about myself every single day.
This is just further proof that we never really have it all together. You just have to be patient and know that if you work towards a goal over time, you’ll eventually achieve it. It’s not going to happen tomorrow, but it’s going to happen. Have faith, and keep pushing yourself in the direction that you're most passionate about, and I PROMISE - you’ll get there.
Life always has a funny way of working itself out.
With love and wellness,